alone at night

now and then, every night, i am crying and crying

alone

sometimes until 3 am or 4 am

sometimes until forever

i don't know

my body feels strange

feel scared

fear of losing someone

i miss her

but i can't talk with her

i miss her

but i can pray with her

i miss her

but my body keeps hurting me

i miss her

i wanna meet her

today i opened g.maps

and looking at her house

then searched for ticket prices to there

but i am afraid when i show up to her

she's going to ignore me

or leaving me

or worst, hate me

i miss her

i am crying

Cicada