every night I cry before go to sleep

these pills cannot help me

these prayers feel far away

I don't even know who I am

I miss you amor

I wish we were still together

I hate myself

for hurting you

But I don't know how to take care myself again

I need you

even these pills cannot make me sleep

or awake

I love you

even it's hurting

I wish you hug and hold me tight

I love you

I wanna call you

and pray with you

feeling with you

crying with you

happy with you

how are you?

Ambon, 18 August 2025