Two Types

 So, 

There are two types of me,

but I don't wanna say I have two faces

I am two types

one, is normal Riko with laugh, love, living, life

two, is abnormal Riko with traumas, war, violence, pain, and wounds

I don't have peace with myself

that is one reaons why i got abandon or people tend to chose themself over me

I wish one day, 

I met with a regular human who can accept me and never ever, ever, leave me

staying with me

I miss you

one day, I'll come back, either alone or with you,

I'll come to the ocean that I looked at your warm eyes

with brightening and warm sunrise

and waves that sound like warm hugs

between us

in the morning, before I left

And you kneeled while looking at me on the boat

I love you

Yes, I do have two types

But my love only has one type: y o u

El. M.

Ambon, 18 January 2026